Dilemmas

One is shirtless and the other is pant less, good thing it isn't the other way around!.

I don't know about you, but this past week was one of those weeks that makes you wonder what else could possibly go wrong.  I know lots of people have worse problems than us, but sometimes you gotta wonder how much more you can take.  Now I know that's a large lead up to what, you ask.

Let's see, it started off with the basement getting full of water.  We then noticed the mold growing on the walls.  Now we will be demolishing the basement, to include the shared garage wall that will have to be immediately re-drywalled $$.  Then we noticed a screw in one of our new tires, and of course it can't be patched, so a new tire had to be purchased $.  Too bad it wasn't on the other vehicle that actually needs tires replaced $$$.  Not to mention it was our month for car registration $$$.  Then we get a hospital bill for when Jesse went to the emergency room for kidney stones $$$$.  Bella grew out of her orthopedic shoes and we ordered new ones $.  Bella's therapy bills are coming in $$.  And to top it all off, this is the first month we are living off only Jesse's income.  Ummm not sure how that math adds up, but not in our favor.  Especially if you knew $ is $100 to $250, $$ is $250 to $500, $$$ is $500 to $1000, and $$$$ is over $1000.  And of course we have all our normal monthly expenses.

It has been great for Bella to have me home full time.  One of the hardest things was finding quality care for Bella while I worked.  I would still like to go back to work, but we just can't find care without paying outrageous rates.  We are lucky that we have good insurance, but even with that insurance we spend thousands and thousands of dollars annually on just medical and therapeutic expenses for Bella.

So that's been my biggest dilemma as of now.  To go back to work and be able to afford the quality of life the three of us are used to.  To include finishing the remodeling of our home.  Some of which has to be done for Bella's sake.  Or stay home, which is best for Bella, and REALLY have to cut back on everything that we do.  I know many families go through this same debate, and they don't have special needs children.  It's a decision that is different for everyone.  I'm just not sure which answer I am being lead to right now.